This is a contribution from Sara.
The last year has been plagued by change.
Our present day living is a drastic change from what it was just 13 months ago. I’m not enjoying it, yet I feel a sense of panic at the thought of it ending. I think it is because I’m not sure what is on the other side.
What kind of pressure will we put on each other?
What expectations will we have of physical spaces?
Will we wear masks forever?
Am I the only one that feels socially awkward now?
Even a bit feral?
I don’t know about you, but I’m exhausted by:
– not knowing the special “covid business hours”
– who are curbside only
– educating myself on how every business works to keep us safe
But yet, going back to normal doesn’t seem possible either.
I feel stuck in limbo. I want to move through this pandemic yet I want to have some expectation to feel safe.
I’ve lived an exciting life, full of adventure and risks.
But with that sometimes come pain and trauma. I’m over that kind of stress. The past year has given me time to reflect on craving safety. Adventure and risks used to create thrill but after all we’ve been through, I’m ready for loads of feeling safe.
Safety has always been a priority in my sessions. I created a container for my client to feel safe. Safe to relax. Safe to speak up. Safe to ask for what they want. And boundaries to know what I can/cannot deliver. And now, my focus is on creating safety for myself. And that’s really hard. It’s easy to slip into what is exciting. It’s not as easy to choose sensible.
I’ve always loved the quote, “Stop the Glorification of Busy.” I’ve loved it because I’ve wanted it for myself yet secretly I’m addicted to ‘busy’ just like everyone else.
As we navigate the ‘after covid’ times, I’ll be unraveling some of these worthless messages for myself. I plan to be mindful about how I choose to spend my time and with whom. I expect to find myself feeling content and peaceful.
As I navigate this for myself, I already see my massage sessions changing. I see more joy pouring in and more space for my client to experience my creativity and expertise.
The work is challenging but I’m seeing the reward already.